03 December 2012

Four Days

Two days ago, I was talking to a friend of mine and he told me that he took me as an example of what his dream girl would be like. He thought I had so many great things and that my husband was a very lucky man to have me. I knew that was not true, we don't show all our true colors to the people around us, so naturally there was a lot to me he didn't know, and if he knew it all he would definitely have a different opinion.

Yesterday, I was talking to one of our friends who really knew me inside out. He told me that I was so kind and forgiving. And that I forgave so many bad things that he knew that I had a good heart. Now that one struck me a little more. He really knew me, and yet he had that to say about me. I can't be all bad then. Maybe there's something good in me after all.

Today, after 4 days of not getting the chance to talk to each other because we're in two different countries, my husband got mad at me because I was upset with him. He was furious because he said "don't be sad" and yet I was still sad. How could I tell him that?! After 4 days of me being upset with him and him not trying to fix it, he said "Don't be sad"! How could I not jump with joy and instantly be OK?

Today When I told him that "Don't be sad" was not enough he got angry at me and wanted to hang up, because I was "over doing it" and my anger was "unjustified".


Four days ago I was OK. Three days ago I was slightly upset. Two days ago I was angry. Yesterday I was sad. Today I am heart broken.


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