Shawsheska III

Madonna - This used to be my playground

"Dear Gwyneth,

How are you? It's been so long since you last came to visit me. Or at least it seems this way to me. I've lost track of time. It's so hard to keep track of days in here, sometimes I feel that It's a blessing. It's so hard to keep count of the time I've spent and the time I have left in here before I'm released. Time passes by so slowly that it makes me want to scream at the top of my lungs whenever I realize how much time I have left within those walls.
It's OK though. I know I'll be out soon. I just have to keep my chin up and everything will be just fine...

How are Jeff and Scotty doing? How's their school work going? Is Scott studying well for his tests? I know how hard all this has been for him. I just wish he focuses on his future. Oh Gwyn I'm so scared that I might have ruined my own babies' lives... I blame myself everyday for what I've done. I can't help it.. it just tears me up inside.. the pain I feel is blinding.

Tell Jeff to be strong.. tell him that I love him so much and that he and his brother are the most important things to me in the entire world.. tell them that I'm coming out soon and I'll make everything right again.

Gwyn, come visit me soon. I need to know how you all are doing. I'm going crazy not knowing what's happening on the outside with my family. Or just call me.. it's really hard to use the phone around here, but if I get a call it's easier. We can talk for a couple of minutes just so I know that everything is OK.. because everything is OK, right?

Okay, I'll finish up then. Tell my boys I love them and that I miss them so much.. tell them that I miss taking them in my arms and hugging all their worries away. Tell them I'm coming home soon.... "